Welcome [Thin doesn't win the race... Life]
Last updated June 18, 2007 --

Hello and Welcome,

This site contains the story of my battle against anorexia nervosa and purging. I am recovered now and I wrote this journal during my struggles and my recovery. I leave this here on the internet where anyone could find it because of the chance that it could help someone either to recover or to prevent this from happening to themself or someone else.

I lost a lot of my life through being sick, and I watched my hopes and dreams go down the drain one by one. However, I was able to recover and build a new life filled with new hopes and dreams.

The word recovery, one learns over time, does not mean that there won't be battles, uphill and down, but that you are free from giving in, day-in day-out. I was a fortunate, I got better, I graduated from a university and I was also able to fullfill my dream of running NCAA division I cross country and track. I am now able to choose life over the mere existence that one trapped in an eating disorder experiences as his or her everyday. I am able to enjoy life and do the things I love again. The thoughts and the obsession that once controlled my life are gone now.

If you or someone you know struggles with an eating disorder, I highly reccommend checking out some of these links and possibly considering looking at the 12 step program as a possible aid to recovery. If you care to know my story of what it was like to go through an eating disorder and recovery (there is a disclaimer) it begins here. You can also go to contents if you want a site map or to go to a specific chapter in my journal.

I hope that the above helps. I update this page occaisionally with how I am doing and I will also try to repsond to any comments or questions from time to time -- if I can be of any help I certainly will try!

My best of wishes to you

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About Me
When I began writing this I was an 18 year old in college. I was your typical student: I hung out with my friends, went out on the weekends, and tried to do well in school. I was also a bit of a sports/excercise fanatic and a runner, and I always will be a runner.

and the other me...
I am a 'recovered' purging-anoretic. I struggled with my eating disorder for over five years, longer depending who you ask. In the beginning I didn't realize it -- all I wanted was to be a better runner. About 15 pounds later, I was too sick to run a decent time anymore and I realized that all along I had been denying what had become a problem. But I couldn't fool myself forever, and by then it had become a much larger problem than I ever anticipated.

Help and Recovery Links...

ANAD

Eating Disorders Anonymous

Recovery Links

ED Referral

The problem is not that there are problems. The problem is expecting otherwise and thinking having problems is a problem.